(By that title I DO NOT mean that I am disgusted by Iran. I am not.)
I cannot keep my promises.
I do not trust others.
I do not speak my mind.
I whisper in the shower.
I do not believe that I can accomplish anything I set out to do.
I do not believe that hard work gets you anywhere.
I feel watched.
I am paranoid.
I pass on rumors.
I have lost my confidence.
I have gone native. This is what it feels like to be Iranian.
Actually, I should not say that I have gone native. If I had truly gone native, I would never admit to all of the above problems: at least not to any outsiders.
5 comments:
T.,
This is a very sad post and I hope it's just a momentary feeling. Maybe you need a vacation form Iran?
Keep well.
Well said; I am afraid it is so, or it seems like that. Yet I believe any body can be herslef, can achieve her goals, and be positive despite all the facts and all the limitations. It is harder some times.
Watched and paranoid? I don't know, maybe a woman thing. I'd say the rest are present above the global average among Iranians (or should I say urban Iranians). Pitty you've got them all at the same time :)
Burnt out is right.
That said, I think that Iranians are also burnt out. Everyone in this country could use a vacation.
I am willing to bet money that there is a higher than average rate of depression, high blood pressure, and passive agressive behavior in Iran. Anyone willing to bet otherwise?
welcome to the club:)
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